New Life Beckoning

It's still a bit hard to believe that next week my life will change again. The May Day weekend is my last weekend as a free man. But all this is also good news.
I've found a job. And not just any job but one I want to do, one where I can learn the skills I need to take my career forward. I know this sounds like the standard bullshit you tell interviewers but I mean it this time. Maybe that is one thing that I managed to find out about myself during my time traveling. When I first applied for jobs years ago I had to lie about my motivation, my career goals. Now, I mean what I say. I've realised that my last job was not the right one - and why. I've come to appreciate what I want to do and what I want to hear when they describe my future responsibilities. For now I believe I've made the right choice. I'll have to wait and see how their job description translates into reality.
Since I'll be working in Frankfurt I'll also have to move again. That was something I worried over a lot. How do you find a flat when you can't really practically go over and view it? I really didn't want to spend money on hotel bills for a period that could easily extend for a month.
Fortunately, that problem has also been solved. I've found a temporary room sharing with a friendly sounding lady about five minutes from my office. From there I can then look for a more permanent new home.
So, on Sunday evening I'll be lugging my big suitcase around a train station again and the ICE will take me to another new chapter of my life. I'll see and learn new things and meet new friends.

Now with this host of fresh opportunities I should be positively buzzing with excitement. In a way I am but there's also a lot of worries and what-ifs. What if the job isn't what I'm looking for? What if I don't find a nice, conveniently located, furnished room within the three months that I have now? What if me and the one I love can't keep in touch? What if my work, or hers, or some circumstance makes it difficult - or impossible - for us to be together in the future? Maybe, that's what terrifies me the most. So in whatever I do I already start worrying about and considering things like "how long does this contract last?", "will this tie me down?" or "will this take up unnecessary funds that I'll need later to go and see her?". She's far away and I wish she was here to put all these worries to rest.
I want to be positive. At this fresh starting point I have every reason to be. Even with her in mind I want to see this as an opportunity to, at some point in the future, make our relationship easier and at all possible. Plus, if I screw up now we might not have a chance at all. So, I hope - and pray - that this is only the first step but it's in the right direction.